April 10, 2013
If you're wondering about the recent blog title change...NO. I don't do self-harm. Ain't nobody got time for that. (OK yes this meme is too old.)
My old blog title "Going Through Changes" really meant it. I was never sure how to title this blog. I was going through changes. I was a child. I tear through pages of life lightheartedly and irresponsibly. I was uncertain. I was a mess in my own terms.
In a sense, I still am. My taste in music changes constantly. Mood swings. Second-guessing myself. I would make a decision and change it a day later.
But more importantly, I have developed a sense of direction. Everyday, there is something to look forward to. Defining goals and working towards them. I smile at my own successes and try harder when there're failures. I am constantly anxious about the amazing things that I get the chance to do and the amazing people that I get to meet. I have also become over-achieving in light of recent events. I try harder, and I would feel like I'm at the top of the world. I may be self-righteous, but I'm not judgmental. I am welcoming new ideas and taking a lot more thought-over risks than I used to. (I'm losing direction though, in terms of geography. Invention of GPS is a double-edged sword, I tell ya. We're dying in our own wits.)
I really meant teeth. At the end of the day, I just want to be a dentist. There's nothing else in the world I want to do for the rest of my life. I love fashion. I love this blog. I love photography. I love teaching others skills that I possess (did I forget to mention that I am becoming an organic chemistry TA next semester? *Squeel* It's not yet official, though). But they are not fields that I will excel in because I don't have the will power to do so. I enjoy them greatly but they are things that I can put aside. They are not my true passion. Being a dentist means that I will get to solve problems, which is always extremely pleasurable. I don't know about you guys, but being able to listen to others' problems and provide a solution to it is one of my favorite things. I am not particularly good at this in life (like when others tell me their relationship troubles and stuff, all I do is just sit there and be like, "ok, now what the hell can I do?!"). And dentistry is something that is so relevant to everybody on this planet. Though the case differs from person to person, there is always a set of complicated (why else does school take so long? Huh?) guidelines that we should follow. I do have to be sensitive because it is to some degrees a trade that relies on interpersonal relations, but it's not something that I have to spend so long to just figure others out. Let's just say that figuring people out is not my forte. I also believe seeing your dentist should be a pleasurable experience. And so many have made this profession a fiend to deal with. Gosh people, teeth are your friends. Dentists should be, too. (My other life goal is to be a stylish dentist, wearing sky-high heels to work everyday and run around like a mad woman, obviously.)
I also really meant on this blog, I want to share things that I can sink my teeth in. Besides having one thing I really want to do for the rest of my life, I also feel the need to let my imagination run elsewhere. This leads to the proper titling (finally) of this blog. incision. I want to become a part-time expert in my hobbies. And this is the place to do it.
*Happy National Siblings Day, David! See ya in T-minus one month!
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